Ok, I'm going to try to do a recap of my week. I'm over the loss to Miami now. I've accepted that we suck, especially after going to the game this past weekend against Ohio University. We were 41 point favorites, and we struggled until the fourth quarter to put them away. Granted, I had left at halftime due to several factors. The first, Tropical Storm Hanna dropped massive amounts of rain on the game. It was suspended 5 minutes into it due to rain and lightning. The delay was 45 minutes. I stood out in this pouring rain the whole time. I'm a true fan, so I did that. Stupid move on my part. By halftime, I was freezing, it was still raining, and we looked like the worst team ever on the field. I mean, Ohio SUCKS. They lost by 30 points to a I-AA team the week before. For those of you that don't know, a division I-A school losing to a I-AA school is bad. I-AA schools are smaller and don't have the big talent. That's how bad Ohio was. We made it look like we were playing some hard team for the national championship. The combination of the rain and the suckage of play made me decide to leave. I didn't miss much.

I had a computer class project due last Friday. An utter waste of time. Nothing hard, it was just time consuming. It took me hours to do. Searching on the web, downloading FTP stuff, blah blah blah. My dog could have done it. It's worth 150 points, so no choice really. Then I had a test on Monday for this class. Not terribly hard. I got 30/35 right, so that was an 86%. The test was worth 300 points. And we get massive amounts of extra credit in this class, so I'd have to be blind, dumb and stupid to not get an A in there.

My Reformation Europe prof just irritates me. I just don't think he thinks about what he's going to day before he says things sometimes. Perhaps if he did, he'd realize how much of a jerk he can come across as sometimes. He decided to make Tuesday our discussion days now. We discuss the reading in groups, and I was a discussion leader this week. It's stupid. You can't adequately discuss over 100 pages of text in 40 minutes, I'm sorry. We can't ever get to the deeper issues since we don't have time. Whatever. As long as I get at least a B in there, I could care less I suppose.

I suck at Tennis. It's hard for me to accept, since I'm really athletic. I can't run, which I know, but I'm good at just about every sport I try. We were working on the overhead shot last Thursday, and being the fantastic player I am, I hit my shin really hard with the racket. It's now a big bruise and a knot. Actually I kind of like it. Reminds me of the days when I played softball competitively and I was always covered in bruises. It made me feel cool. Which is kind of sad. Woo!!

I turned in my application for graduation. So it's official now. I don't think it's really hit me yet. I'm trying really hard to get this weight off so I can be ready for the December committee meeting for the Air Force Officer Training, but I don't know. It's hard to lose these last 10-15 pounds. If not, I know I'll be ready by January. I think I might end up having to do that. I guess if that happens, I'll have to get a job somewhere for a month or two between graduation and going to OTS. Assuming I get in. Which I'm sure I will. I still worry though.

I'm buying my plane ticket to NY for December this weekend. WOO!!!!!!! I'm getting more excited about going everyday. We're already making plans for the things we're going to go do. It's fun. I know I'm going to wish I could stay longer than a week. Once I leave, if I'm going to be leaving for OTS, it will be the last time I'll really get to see anyone for a long time. I'll be able to talk to everyone until I leave, but it makes me sad that once I'm gone, I won't be able to talk to anyone for months, except through letters. I've made some of the best friends I've ever had, and I don't want to not see anyone. But that's a ways down the road, so I guess I'll worry about it then.

I have a new favorite song. It's called Bother by Corey Taylor. I'm pretty sure he's the old lead singer of Slipknot. A very very kickass song. Everytime I listen to it, I think it's perfect for Buffy and Angel, or John and Aeryn. Perhaps not for them as couples specifically, but just as characters. Everyone should do download this song. Here are the lyrics.

Wish I was too dead to cry
The self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest

I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go til it bleeds

Wish I died instead of lived
The zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go til it bleeds

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping father
But once I hold on
I'll never look down my deceits (or, I'll never live down my disease. No one can seem to tell which one is right, and I can't either. Either one is cool though)

That's it for today. It was a long day.